The problem is that starting a new project is like taking a deep breath and diving underwater. I know I'll be gone from the world for a little while and in my own little creative world. It's exciting, but it's also scary.
When I'm getting ready to start a new project I have to gather myself and mentally and emotionally prepare for the trip. I have to be willing to focus and engage and commit to a creative act. I have to squash my demons who keep saying that nobody cares if I do this or not. I have to create enough enthusiasm to get past the tough creative times after the initial excitement of the project dies down.
I have to weave a spell around myself to care enough to devote my time and my life to this pursuit. It isn't easy sometimes, but it is getting easier. As I get older, it's easier to spend my time doing activities that I enjoy that others don't understand. As I get older I am content to spend my time in enjoyable creative and intellectual pursuits.
Besides enjoying the time I get to spend with my wife and friends, I can't think of a better way to spend the days of my life.